Melbourne photos finally!!

Sorry these took ages but they are here now!! Enjoy (and remember i am not a photographer!)

These are mostly at the aquarium But there are some of the hotel at the bottom, will post others in a second. 

The adorable black clown fish

 Jellyfish, really cool unless you get stung by one, I have and it hurts like hell!! I was smart and got stung on the back of my leg then wiped it with my hand so I got stung on my hand as well!!

 Lionfish

 Lobster

 The tropical tank with Dory fish!!

 Clownfish, Like NEMO!!

 Melbourne over the Yara river

 Watched the Book Thief on the way over, really good movie,sad, but good

 Our hotel room, haha just after we dived onto the bed as you do..

 The AMAZING pool!!!!

How I make my Porridge (normal breakfast)

Recipe made by me :) This is normally my everyday breakfast, it is very filling and good for you too :) and very yummy too :)

It isn't a lot and I know I should eat more... Working on it

You should give this recipe a try but remember just because I eat it doesn't mean that you should eat it everyday as well, it's your choice on what to eat and everybody's body is different and has different needs.

You could probably double this recipe to make a good sizes.

1/4 cup oats
1/2 water
Milk
Brown sugar
Salt

Mix the oats and water together and pinch of salt in a bowl and put in the microwave for about 2 minutes, watch it carefully as it is easy to over cook and turn into a lump of oats.
Serve with a sprinkle of brown sugar and milk.

Yum :) :) I probably put way too much sugar on mine but it tastes waayyy better with more :)

Ugh

Ugh my mum is still on the computer!! And she said she would be on it until at least 5 so after that I can finally post pics again as I feel my blog is rather boring without them and I can finally do my French assement that does go on my report which is dur tomorrow and my mum knows that its due tomorrow so she better let me on the computer as I can't do it on my iPad !

Anyway I can just do my maths English and textiles homework in the mean time. Why does it always seem to be that all my teachers give us homework and assements at the same time!! It's like they secretly plan it together when they all will give us homework. As I have French,maths, English, textiles, art (because I missed two lessons while in Melbourne) and my French and social studies assements and a test in PE all due on Monday!! Sigh...

I think I am going to make my friends birthday cards now as I need a break from school just for a little bit! I still haven't got them anything, I have these jars of skittles in like a rainbow I made and one window chalk pen each and I need one more thing!! Any ideas!! Please comment, be brave!!

Otherwise a pretty good day, how was yours?! I hope it was fantastically awesome :) have a nice afternoon :) xoxo

Pictures later!!

Hey

Sorry guys not a good post day :/ well photos...my mum is on the computer still!! I swear she hasn't left it at all except about 10 to go to sleep!! And I am already asleep by then! Will do as soon as I can!! Promise!

In English we started doing myths and ledgins so that will be fun, we are in groups of four I have my two friends M and J and this one boy who I kinda feel sorry for as he and J hate each other they literally cannot sit next to each other! Haha oh well lots of auguring tomorrow! Tomorrow we find which myths we are studying we are hoping for Greek roman or Egyptian they are the best ones but only three out of seven groups will get those so fingers crossed it is us :)

In textils I actually ,don't mind our teacher at the moment, no we still aren't doing or shorts ... :( but we are going to start screen printing so that will be really cool as you dont usually get to do screen prints until yr 13 which is three years away and I won't be doing textiles in yr 13 or next year :( my last year :( because I don't plan to have a career connected to textiles and you can only get 8 credits from the whole full year course when you get 36 from history which I am taking instead. My textiles teacher really wants me to do it though she marked my book and wrote in it this is great really good (yay!!!) do textiles next year! Haha...nope. And then when she saw my designs form printing she said they were great and they would get my top Marks next year as well as this year (again yay!) and I would do really well in the course and I should move to textiles !! Again haha..nope!! She will have t teach it without me in her class. Ever since she saw my book, which got top of class! She is treating me as her little pet and adores me, it very creepy!! Oh well at least I'm in her good books again!!

Otherwise nothing really exciting has happens just normal school and ballet :)

Have a good night xoxo!!

Photos... And anxiety

Hey guys I am really sorry but the photos had just finished downloading off my camera onto the computer as I was just about to copy them onto my post but my mum came in and said she needed the computer for work even though I was also doing homework at the time, oh well I wasn't even going to try to fight back as I knew I was going to lose either way so hopes up tomorrow strait after school!! I will try sorry xoxo! :)

Well my day was okay it started off very stressful but was okay once I was at school, I find that I get anxiety before entering each class with a different teacher and students and especially before school! I went to a phsocologist for almost a year to try and help my anxiety as I was not coping at all self harming and it got so bad that I pretended to be sick for two weeks, well I started off actually sick but then it turned into anxiety but my symptoms were pretty much the same (nausea, vomiting etc.) and I didn't notice. For about three months I felt terrible I was scared to be in public or around people yet I was terrified of being alone, I had to go to school but threw up very morning before school and occantionly at school in the bathrooms (see where my ED started?) I spend most of my time at the councilors office or crying outside my class to scared to go in. It was horrible. Thankfully it is no where near as bad now just a little to make my day difficult and stress full but that's okay I have learnt to live with GAD and hopefully I will continue to improve but I have been told that I will never be free from GAD it will always be with me :/ but who cares?? Not me, got to keep positive :) :)

If anyone has questions about anxiety or GAD please feel free to comment them or if you want to email me privately, hey I don't even care of I don't know who you are or your name feel free to be anonomus! I am here to help, I love helping people :) :)

Anyway this post has kind of turned into anxiety not photos oh well have a awesome night!! :) xoxo :) :)

Long day...

Sorry no post in the morning this is why; I woke up at 6 with my alarm but then somehow went back to sleep and woke up again at 7:20 and I had to leave to catch the bus at 7:40!! So I was very rushed and all my anxiety caught up with me and I just burst into tears. I just didn't want to go to school, I knew I would go but it felt like a impossible task at the time. And then to make things worse I went to make my breakfast to find we had no oats left as my brother and mum had finished them that morning, ugh I hate having to change what I eat, I like my schedule. It is oats for breakfast!  So I had a fortisip instead :/ and to make things even worse time to grab my lunch and go and we didn't have any of my crackers or any crackers at all or rice things or roast corn so I had no carbs to pack, only a banana for fruit and biscuits. So that's what I took a banana and two biscuits :( no yogurt either. That one thing I hate about holidays. At lunch I had nothing as I ate my food at morning break so I decided that I wasn't going to be stupid and not eat soi went to the canteen (I hate the canteen soooo much! Anxiety with asking and deciding what to have and I don't know what is in it etc.) I ended up getting a chicken wrap which was okay. It had too much BBQ sauce though. But better than nothing.

I have lots of homework to do and three assignments to do well two really one isn't due until the end of the year but is something like 50 hours worth of work and I am slow so probably more like 80 :/

I'm looking forward to Friday night as my friends invited (first time invited out with my new friends XD!!!) me out to go rockclimbing, only at clip and climb so it will be easy but I haven't been there in about 4 years so it will be really fun to go back :D yay!! It's like I can feel my friends actually care about me and don't just sit with me because they feel sorry for me!! And even better next day day saturday I also got invited to go to my friends joint birthday party!! I feel like I am included with my friends finally!!! I use to feel left out, they also use to go out with me, they would invite everyone but me and these are the first two times I have been asked yayyyy!! So happy all fuzzy feelings inside :) :) !!! No ideas for presents though any ideas for 15yr old girls?? Please comment make my day :)

I will post the pictures later they are just downloading now :)

Hope your day went super well xoxoxoxo!!

Back to normal...

Yay back home again! We had tea at our grans which was roast chicken with veges then a apple and pear crumble for dessert! Yum! I am also happy to say that I have only put on .5kg over these five days yay! Tomorrow I am back to school.. Starting to freak out already... Bad thing I know but I do have an anxiety disorder so I suppose I should of seen all the nausea and nerves coming... I hate it so much and it is so hard to overcome! Its like I recover then fall back into GADs hands again and again. It is hard to over come it, it's a constant struggle. And I hate it I wish I never had anxiety ever! Can't I be normal??! Please for once!?!
If only.

And tomorrow I will have lots of school work to catch up on sigh.. I hate being behind, but I think I am getting use to it now. I miss school when my anxiety gets the better of me or when I feel so depressed I can't do anything or constantrate so there is no point or because I am sick. I get sick soo often it is not funny, I know it is because of my ED I don't eat enough therefore my immune system is very weak along with the rest if me, it's like I have a never ending cold, mixed in with kidney infections etc. along the way.

But tomorrow I will post all my pictures and update my Melbourne posts and add pics to them as well, so something to look forward to, I hope... Let me know :)

Love you guys so much, I feel I get so much support just by so many people reading my blog, thanks :) and I hope you are doing well and recovering super amazingly! ;) I believe in you!! ;D