Friday!!!

Yay Friday, weekend!!! Horay!! Done all my homework, I can now do anything I want for two days!! Mwahaha! :) tomorrow I plan to walk down to the dairy (conveyance store) and stock up on lollies! Haven't got any in a long time so it is time to make a stash, I know it will take some effort to buy and eat them but they will last longer that way and I have made a mental disison that I will NOT come out with a bag of fruit! My goal! Haha sounds weird... Tonight I think we are having pasta and bacon yum! And I need to put on weight so I will eat it, I will!! It will be hard but I will all of it!!!

I did my speaking test today as well, yeah the one I was freaking out about and had to write and learn off by heart in French at 8 at night because my partner blew me off thanks, way to put stress on me! Well anyway I went up in my pink socks hat gloves and scarf and spoke and all went fine and I got excellence on it as well!! Yay!!

Have a nice weekend :) you can do it xoxo

Haha

So no anxious post in the morning :) well partly because for some reason I was very calm! I don't know why but it was good :) as for PE I just put three plasters over my cuts and yeah know one asked! So that's all good, we spent our period skipping!! Brings back childhood memories :) I did my speech last, as she was pulling our names out of a container mine wasn't being picked so I calmed down I would just have to do it tomorrow no probs but one of the speeches was short so there was time to do one more and then she called out my name... Kinda freaked out but just got up acted like there was no problems and it was all fine I spoke for 3:50minutes which is 50 seconds over the minimum time so that was good, I was so nervous and shaking I could hear my voice shaking as well as my face going bright red... Haha can't help it, I can't wait to see what mark I got, hopefully a merit higher (excellence) I think is unlikely but lower I think it's a bit harsh but I really don't care what my mark is, I GOT UP AND SPOKE IN FRONT OF THIRTY PEOPLE!!!!!! Yayyyyy I couldn't be prouder of myself, ya I felt like bursting into tears and running out refusing to speak but I did it !! That is all that matters to me at the moment so happy!!!

Good news

Good news when I was at the doctors and hopped on the scales it read 46.3 I was so surprised !! When I constantly weigh my self at home on two different scales they both read 45 ! So that was a shock but I guess a good one. I now only have to have those horrid fortisips twice a day (which I am already doing... They just don't know) so yay! And when my weight gets to 48 I can just have one a day then when i get to 50 none!! But if I can't keep the weight on I will have to go back on them and it will be for the whole three a day for three months...

My speech is in four days... It is currently sitting at two minutes so I have to write one more minutes worth yay... I think it is pretty good though. But as I am in the extension class it will be marked very harshly. I will write about another two minutes worth though as I tend to get nervous (understandable) and talk really fast and if it is not over three minutes we have to re-do it and I won't be doing that as well yeah. I think you can guess why.

We have two more lessons on our textile project and we well I am almost done. I redid the skirt all hand sewed at home as I didn't have a machine and I finished the second wing at school yesterday sp now all I have to do is attach the wing to the top of the singlet and put on a hand loop that won't take long at all, so yay!

Speeches And weigh in

Ahh I have five days to write a speech that has to be three minutes long and then we are preforming them on Tuesday!!! I have only done some research on my topic child labour and am freaking out!! We only got told four days ago but I have just procrastinated so nine days is down to five!!

Tomorrow morning I have to go see my GP for a weigh in, kinda nervous I will go in my kilt as it is before school so hopefully that will put on a kg along with my very heavy school jacket as well. Fingers crossed !

Nerves

Today in English we have started speeches... My favorite topic.. I am doing mine on why forced child labour is bad. Anyways today we did improvted speeches our teacher had all our names on Popsicle sticks and was drawing them out one by one I was just praying for mine not to be picked but it was seventh we then had to draw out a card with our topic on it and I got if I could change school lunches I would... Hmm one of the worst topics I think. As I got up out of my seat I could just feel the wave of nausea wash over me and all the anxiety rush into me I honestly was about to run out of the classroom but I decided I would do it bit my lip and did it. Standing up in front of the class was very nerve racking, I only lasted eight seconds before saying umm which was quite a bit longer than some people that said um as there first word!
I was very very happy and proud of myself afterwards it is has probably been one of the most difficult things I have done since developing anxiety at the beginning of the year do yay!
I felt really sorry for an exchange student who got the best thing about snow days is... And she had never been in snow before!!