Mall for tea and shopping!!

Well as some shops had one day sales today we decided t go down to the mall for dinner and to do some shopping!! :) I got a new pair of some really cute denim short :) And some shoes that I love for summer as I didnt have any that fitted :) So I am really happy as well as getting a new electric beater as I might of broke it :) well I was using it when it stopped working but it was 15 yrs old so it was okay :) Our new one is a nice bright blue :)

So I am really happy :) 

A good thing about putting on weight and growing!! You can buy new clothes that actually fit !!! :)

Wednesday

Hi guys I hope you had a great day :)

Mine was very cold and rained the whole day :( but otherwise it was good :)

Thankfully beach volleyball was cancelled!! I really didnt want to play in cold wet sand!! So in a way that was a good thing but I wish it was sunny so i could play!!

After waiting 30 very long minutes in the rain for my bus driver to finally turn up I really wasnt impressed with my dripping hair made it look like i just got out of the shower!! haha oh well!!
I decided to make some shortbread :)

I think they look really cute :) and I cant wait to have them in my lunch tomorrow!! Yay!!

And I have ballet tonight as well Yay!!

I hope you have a good night too!!! :) :)

Hey beautiful :)

                                    

Hi

Hi again I am just going to stop that last post because I am just so angry with myself why can't I do it??! So hopefully this one is going to be happier, well not really because my day wasn't very good.

First of all my friends boyfriend broke up with her after they have been together for over a year and a half and so she has been crying the whole day and I feel so bad for her. I want to make her feel better but nothing works she just crys and I feel terrible about it.
Secondly we had our French food thing which I just wanted to bunk that class. As soon as I walked in I felt sick and all I ate was a macaron and half a tiny creme brûlée which got put on my plate. I just used how I can't eat gluten as I am celiac as an excuse even though I can cope with a little bit as I am use to the feeling, so I didn't have to eat the pastrys and creme puffs and eclairs etc.  I avoided the pate which we were all meant to try (but it is chicken and cow liver which is gross and had a hard layer of butter on top, no thank you) and snails nope just stood in the corner not eating them. I did have a little bit of goats cheese because it was getting past around and everyone was watching the relations so i had the smallest piece on the plate and sorry but it tasted what goat smelt like, it was disgusting. And that's it didn't eat anything else.
I did get lots of compliments for my macaron with was nice though :)
And then I had maths. Not saying anymore.

Last night I had volleyball which was fun :) and we won our first game!! Yayayy! We win the first set 25-12 then lost the second 23-15 then won the third 15-8 !!! Yayay!! So I am happy about that :) I am so nervous about my tournament starting on Friday!!! :( but it will be fun I hope! And I a, stressed because we still don't know what time the games are or where it is being held!! So I can't organize transport wi my family so I might have to bus and yeah...

Anyway I have tennis now (yayyyy) so see ya!! :)

I can't do anything

I can't do anything.mi am useless. I don't understand anything at school at the moment it is all too hard and doesn't make any sense. And I am freaking out because we have exams in two weeks in the stuff we are learning now but I DON'T get it!! Help?!
It is all to hardand I just feel ao dumb. And it's the stuff I understood at the star of the year and found easy that we are revising now and it doesn't make sense. I can't do it. I feel like I have just gotten so much worse over the year. Everything is just weird and I don't get it. I don't want to go to school ever again because it is too hard and it is killing me. It feels like something in my mind has just clicked and made me so dumb. I don't understand anything in maths like anything. And we are doing fricken sets and vent diagrams and I just sit through the whole lesson praying that he won't ask me a question because he has been over it heaps but I don't get it I can't do it and I won't be able to answer him. And in social studies we have to research a government not ours and find out how it works and I can't even get the nz government let alone ancient egypt!! Nothing makes sense!!! And I have so much stuff and assements and assignments which I just can't do!! Why now!??! It could happen any other time just not right before exams, which I am going to fail!! Help?! Please.

Long hard day

Hi guys xoxo!
I am so tired, seriously all I want to do is sleep.
This is how my day went : bake birthday cake for my gran with B who kept trying to eat the batter or trying to jump/stand/crawl off the bench I had him sitting on, soo I pretty much couldn't move frm that spot without taking him with me so everytime I needed an ingredient or put one away of line the tray etc. he had to be on my hip me trying to do it with one hand, next study for about 40min didn't really get much done, then make a whole batch of macaron for French on tuesday,Then make a card for my gran I made this pretty little pop up balloon thing which looked nice bt took ages, then make a invite for my gran to come to the ballet with us for part of her present, then have lunch (salad), then do my theme study project for about an hor and a half, then ice the cake, then rush t get ready to go out to tea with my gran for her birthday which is tomorrow but we are busy n Monday's so we did it today. I had a mini pork roast which was really nice :), then come home and have cake with strawberries and cream and then shower, clean up my study stuff which was all over my floor, then bed and I am exhuasted.
So I had a really busy day, and tomorrow is going to be just as bad as I have tonnes if theme study project thing to go and study for my exams coming up and I have volleyball and ballet and I have to fill my macaron, I plan to drizzle white chocolate on top to try and hide the ones that cracked, I was more successful than last time but still quite a few cracked :( buti am improving! All strait after school so that's going to be tight!
How was your day??

Lots is love L xoxoxo :)

Today... Sorry became very long ;)

Well last night was fun! And we did go trick or treating after all! Well kind of... As M invited our families along as well one of the girls that came had two younger siblings one six and the other three and they were all dressed up so we took them along, looking after them. Although we did manage to get a few lollies along the way. The best parts would be Oscar the little boy running into peoples houses (well only to one house that we knew, the others he tried so had !! Haha) and then with one lady she turned around to get the sweets and he threw a clump of grass inside her door but we managed to get it out before she saw, she just thought we were strange for laughing hard out when she turned around again, and then he pointed out every house alarm and said alarm alarm its scarwy in a really cute voice as he thinks they are robots! Nawww!!  So cute! He was so much effort though and next yr that will be B *sigh*....
And Ms dad made really good gf pizza, like they were amazing!!

This morning I had my first interclub tennis game and if you talked to me before the game it would probably be like please take me home I can't do it please I feel sick please I cant do it or something very similar to that... Haha but it was fine I just felt terrible all because I was super nervous but I wish I didn't have to deal with stuff like that, because I shouldn't get so anxious before something simple but oh we'll that's me... But it was super fun!! Even tho I lost it was still really fun and was really close too. My doubles partner isn't the best so we lost 9-3 pretty much nil or 15 something each game and the sets we did win we're either on my serve or by pure luck that she got the ball over the net but hey she tried :) in my singles I also lost 9-3 but it was a good game and we got to duece every set and all three sets I won were on my serve so I am super happy about that! Yay!! But it was soooo hot!! About 19,20 degrees!! (haha that probably doesn't seem very hot to you guys!!) probably our only hot day this summer! And we were sweating so much ;)  and my sock slipped down and now I have a massive blister on the back of my heal :( and I got blood all over the back of my shoe :( oops! Reminder wear better socks!! Haha oh well nothing I can do now! It just has to be better by Fri when I have Canterbury champs for volleyball!! Ahh nervous!

Whether I am just dehydrated or not I have a massive headache and feel sick now so maybe I just wasn't strong enough to play almost two hours of non stop tennis this morning or maybe I am getting a cold but whatever it is I wish it would go away!! I am NOT going to be sick in weeks before my exams again!! I was last yr (I now know why my immune system was so bad, because I wasn't eating enough but now I know!!) so that was fun.. I was away sick five out of nine weeks that term... Hmmm yeah flu and kidney infections and stomach bugs not nice. And if I didn't have exams I wouldn't of gone to school that week either but I had to.. And I almost failed some as ipfor English we had to write an essay on a book we studied in class while I wasn't there, so I kind of just made it up... I got achieved with difficulty!! Haaha seeings all I knew about that book was what my friends told me before the exam I think I did pretty well! Same I social studies I had to write a essay on the impacts if the three gorges dam in china which all I knew was it is a big dam and in china! So I just made things up like it would effect the fish living in the waters and help people get across the river etc. hahaha!! And I got merit!! Hahaha!!?!
And now I am so off topic ;) I am good at that ;)

Tomorrow I think we are going out to tea with my gran for her birthday as it is on Monday but we are all super busy on Monday's like B had preschool and R football training and I have volleyball then ballet so yep that's pretty much what every day after school is like in our house! Along with homework and study! It's crazy!! So Sundays we are free at night! Can't be lunch because R had futsul! But at night we are free! So tha will be nice! And I have to make a cake for dessert for her and I also have to make macaron for  french class on tues but they will keep! That will be intresting and difficult for me.. We are all bringing either french baking (which I am) or money to go towards the stuff our French teacher is getting, hmm let's say I am not going to be eating much... I has pastrys I am sorry they are just gross, it's not the actual stuff in it it's I hate the taste eww! It s just one one those things that you just can't stand... Everyone has something! And I am not eating snails o(eww last time we had them last yr in class I didn't eat one but the whole class stunk of snails dirt and garlic..gross) or blue cheese,it's just moldy cheese or pâté which is ground up livers of varities animal or any ing like that that will be there so sorry if you like those things, good on you!! Well done! You are stronger than me! I can't eat anything like that let alone normal things!! And just remember eat what YOU want to eat, don't worry about my opinions they are mine not yours of you like it go for it!! Eat what you want!  I am just so weak I can't even touch  a snail without a shell ?with shells they are so cute love them :)  but cooked I couldn't touch one let alone put it in my mouth!! I would probably end up throwing up.. Same with blue cheese and livers!! Uugghh! Scary!! So that is going to be a fun lesson... Maybe.... Not... And I am always scared of eating others baking like what if it wasn't cooked properly or would give me food poisoning or something like that.. I know I am being paranoid but I can't help it, it is hard. So I have that to look forward to on Tuesday!...

And I have a super busy day tomorrow! Wish me luck! :)
I hope you are all well and doing great! :)
Xoxoxo :) :) love you!!